In and out......

So lately I have been extremely busy with work....

Im wishing I could meet someone and just settle down already.....but the biz has its perks so I guess Ill stick it out....

But how much is too much?

*drinking
*partying
*starving
*exposed to TOO much....

Perhaps Ill share my thoughts next time....but too much is in my head right now....I think Ill take a HOT shower to mellow my thoughts out! ;)

Crazy Busy...

So STP are coming! Im excited, hopefully I wont have a shoot or anything to interupt me! Eek!



Okay, I know I have been MIA (Ohhh ADD moment-"I fly like paper get high like planes, if you catch me at the border I got visas in my name"....but Im back!



So new game...TAG....



1.) I secretly want to do some Italian Job stylized robbery.....that would be crazy!



2.) I some times dont eat if I ate a huge meal the day before......skipping meals to me isnt bad.....but look at the industry Im in. Shhh!



3.) I cant wait to show off my own photography, instead of being photographed. I want to be recognized not only for a face. But for my talent.



4.) I people watch. Im bad at it. I know its not right...but come on, secretly everyone does it. Its a bad habit I know. Confessions....I laugh in my head when I watch people interact with others, or just looking at someone to see how truly uncomfortable they are in a situation......I know its not right. But that is what this is for right? Secrets....



5.) I hate some one that I used to love....I know that seems common but it feels good to write it.



Tagging: Jamie!
Unsatisfied
Allie-Gator

Just landed....SOS! Mayday she's going down!

So here is a bit of a scoop. One scoop with no toppings what so ever. I see how you people get when it comes to these things. So I will keep it simple.....why yes, simplicity is best right now.

I have been talking to someone almost every week online via email since I was about a Freshmen in Highschool. He was a back up dancer for Doe, she remade that song "Were in Heaven"......and well I think I may have openned up a whole new can of worms for myself. Why cant things just remain the same....steady, easy, safe....

I will not state his name, lets call him Marcus....

Marcus: Good morning Grace (He calls me Grace because apparently I photo this way...hell if I know, but its sweet I guess....)

Me: Hey, how are you today?

Marcus: Man Im beat, they made me teach a new routine and its just too much, especially right now... (referring to his relationship issues, he proclaimed his love to me last week....and my response was and I hate to say it "laughter" seriously I am my own worst nightmare, I laughed! Who does that! I think I have some kind of mal-function chip programmed in me....)

Me: Im sorry M, I really am. I hope things turn out in your favor. Why dont you take a vacation....(Oh crap, did I really just type that? Im an idiot.....think before you talk, type, move.....I swear.....walking disaster I am)

Marcus: A vacation? Well I havent been to the States since 2000....(See I knew he was going to assume, quick think fast Tay....fast.....he wants to visit, what do I do!?!)

Me: States? You going to take a vacation to what state? (this can only get worse! O'great!)

Marcus: To you silly. (See now he just crossed the line to creepy....and Im annoyed)


I accidentily (huge smurk) got disconnected from my internet. Opps!

A go...

I just remembered I have to clarify for those that know me....I didnt mean harm by talking about P....she is really sweet I just dont think she takes acting that serious.....very marketable gal though....obviously....

And no, Im not friends with her....spoke about 5 minutes though....

Pulled from the back of the shelf....

I was reading someones blog last night, and it reminded me that I havent read a book in a while....I ran to my shelf (ran? really Im not that pathetic, no I didnt run more like briskly walked haha, bad adjective makes me sound seriously sad) and skimmed the books...pulled out Diary by Palahniuk, I mean I never used to read things by him until one day my friend Brian (a serious Dick, whom I will chat about later he has to be the closet to a Freudian basket case as any) told me about him. Now I cant get enough. I dusted it off and began to retrace the pages of the fine printed book, you could tell I had gone through it because the pen and high-lighted marks were just too much. My mother is a teacher and I kind of picked up habits from her and from College on how to analyze a book. I take it way too far and detach every word and phrase into my own meaning. I think literature is always up for interpretation, its Art meaning....'we' give it its own meaning.....so last night before hitting the sheets I began to re-trace my prior steps.....its as if remembering a dream...I often place myself in the book, playing the main character and having my family and friends relate to the others. Its surreal sometimes how lost I get in the realm of other people's words....I like it...sometimes I wish I could stay there.....

I went to bed late last night, not like it mattered because I do not fly out to LA until Thursday Morning....so its ok! But yes, I am up quite early. Got to have my daily regimen of the humid Houston air and the concrete beneath my feet, and the steady 'pitter patter' of my quick feet.....which does wonders for my hair. haha....yeah right.

Im staring at this screen now and I want to just babble on.....but I have lots to do today and well frankly I dont have time to waste....go-go-go. Its never at a quiet stand-still is it? We are in Texas for crying out loud not New York!

Humph! Sigh!

"Eh!"

Okay well Im out....I may hop back on later....I just have house-hold duties to perform later. Then I have to read a script for a role Im suppose to agree to play.....hopefully this one is good, because the last one was ummm how do I say this....not even worth the time of Pauly Shore or (the annoying horrid actress) Miss P. Hilton. Need I say more?

~T~

In the middle....

This shoot is taking forever. Location change mid-way. Im in the Valley today....so we are now in this CREEPY graveyard....and they expect me to produce beauty...haha I'll go for the distressed damsel look I guess....Its super hot and humid and Im in a beautiful dress....I feel like my make-up is going to rub off.....ew! Oh well.....Im getting my hair 'Did' as I write this....POOFY! haha....They are taking my hair to the next level...I feel like Marge Simpson on Crack!

After today I head back up to Houston....I play the Sax and well I have a lesson to teach one of my students tomorrow night at 6pm :) My favorite past time...I love to teach!

Then from there I go to Cali where I feel lost in a land of the serious superficial. Could our world be anymore fake?!?! I know it seems like I help support it by my work, but I dont do it for the famed outlook of it, I do it for the art. Its as simple as that. I started taking photography lessons from my buddy Marc....about to launch out on my own. I want my own Gallery one day....

My ex's mother is a photographer for the Government. She was even offered a job for National Geographic! I mean wow....Amazing woman. Quite the talent. She goes to Lourdes every year and just takes massive amounts of photos.....Idolistic.

Art is such an expression. My father was an artist and musician and he doesnt do that anymore. He says if he could go back in time he would be a photographer. You capture "Life" as you deem it. Poetry in the making!

If your wondering whether this 'gal' has time to date.....think again. No time. But I do have my eyes on this man. So amazing.....I just got out of a horrible relationship and it openned my eyes to a whole new me. A me that I had lost.....never again will that happen.

Thats a wrap.....Im out the door again......'til later!

Media over load......speak of nothing....

Saving grace....

Laughing in front of the camera, I cant help it when Marc starts rolling. Its kinda like when I get in water I just starts laughing hysterically.....(fun fact #1 haha!)

Me....plain and simple.

I know people expect for me to dish out my whole mess of a life right here right now, but I dont know if its something to be shared so easily. This is my life we are talking about. I can be fully honest and then what if someone comes and reads my posts and dont like what I have to say, what then? Its suppose to be to relieve stress, to breathe freely and plainly. I have read so many people's blogs because I was 1st reading Allie's and some of the things I have read blow my mind. I have seen such love and compassion and articulate love of the arts and for one's work, but I have also seen hate...and it seems to stem more and more from our famed source of communication: "Internet"

I see victims, predators, artists, lovers, musicians, enthusiasts etc...

I will speak from my heart at all times, but the moment you do not like something "hush" for I dont think anyone has a place to judge, mock or laugh. Criticism is left for the arts and politics of things that are drawn from a creative or analytical divine. If you have no relation to any of my words or topics and want to purely speak out of hate. Reside from my blog.

With that I say "Hi" to all.....and stay tuned. I have a photo shoot in about 45 minutes. Im late!